Help Organize Me!

This blog thing is weird. 

For people that know me and have been to my office or home, I love to organize with velcro, bungie cords, discreet, white screw in hooks, labels, drawers, baskets, bags etc.  I tend to over-organize by devising new organizational systems to replace the old systems that were working just fine.  I think this is an ADD THING, or an avoidance THING.  As if the very word “organization” itself has some power, immediately following that last sentence, I was compelled to run downstairs for my little camera to show you this problem.  I spied sveral organizational projects brewing as I moved down the stairs and through the kitchen (the long way on purpose) to the camera.

I recall a horrible time when Torri and I moved into our new house, a time I wish I could take back.  Her desk was in her second room and all the little things that belong in a 7th graders desk were all over the place.  She sweetly organized EVERYTHING by the time I returned home from work and I flipped a lid.  As if organizing MY WAY was somehow better.  I hate this memory.  I am so sorry Tor… That was so wrong of me.  Ugh.

Anyway.  I believe my external attempts are like a projective painting.  Does anyone else feel this way?  I guess if I did not share with you what is underneath appearances I would simply look “organized.”  Yet I search for systems needlessly.  Like my head life that no one sees, including me most times.

The blog is a combination of the projection outward of what is both conscious and unconscious.  Not only is it what to put up and when, but how much and where does it go.  I look at the left and want to simplify it, much like my life.  There is not much I can do about changing the past, only how I understand it in relation to now.  I think if someone could help me… maybe I would not need those 29 pairs of scissors my friend Danny counted that night…

Comments

[gnurd]

Lucy, I think you are being too hard on yourself, if you actually think your OO (organizational obsession) is a problem.....everyone has faults, and to have this fault isn't that bad, actually.....just think of all of the space that you don't waste!!! Everything has a place, and you have the artistic flair to make it look great! What's the problem???

I hate those things in our past that make us cringe when we look back on them....I feel the same way about the mistakes I've "almost" made (kidding, since men never make mistakes, right?). Looking forward is the way to go, using the mistakes (and successes) of the past as the guide.

[John A]

Yes!!! someone agrees with me about looking forward that is because we are men thanks gnurd. Look in the rearveiw mirror for whats happened behind us then move forward. Lucy will you orgainize my pool shed and also 58A? HA HA I have not posted until now to much looking back gnurd you made my day and Mrs. Puff you too.

[Joanne]

I think that being organized is definately a positive attribute... The word, the act of organization does hold some 'power'... I believe that power is 'control'. Being organized helps me to feel in control. You said you search for new systems needlessly... perhaps a little OCD with the OO... do you use all 29 pairs of scissors? Maybe you could give some away... or, you'll just never need to buy another pair!
As for your blog... it's great. As you said to me not too long ago... don't be so hard on yourself.
The recollections of not good memories... push them out as fast as they come in... it's not good to sit with them Lucy.
If you need more help just let us know.

[Trish]

Lucy, I like the scissors. I think they make a statement about you and say that you are a no nonsense kind of person....somebody who is not going to mess around wasting precious time looking for things. I think the bad memory with Torri may be exactly what gnurd is saying...you being hard on yourself. You were likely having a bad day and there was probably more going on. Right now when things are so out of control....you need to know you can control some things and if "organzing" does that for you....I say do it! "The Brain" P.S. All this time I thought gnurd was a female (gnurd...that s/b taken as a compliment)

[Joanne]

Just wanted to say that I was only making a pun with all the letters... OCD with the OO.

[Becky]

So all this time I was blaming my children for losing scissors and it has been that infamous scissor napper from Hull quietly taking them! Seriously, I have been to the ICA in Boston and this collection of scissors could very easily pass as art, entitled- Lucy Wightman Cuts Loose or A Look at Our Materialistic Society Through One Artist's Obsession With Scissors or Thats Quite A Pair You Have Ms. Wightman..no, not that pair, the scissors! So, I was hoping to see Lucy and her pair tonight but ended up nursing a sore throat with some medicinal rum from Dr. Atturio (when he handed me the drink he said "here you go Deep Throat"..how many of you are old enough to remember that one), and am now home at 8 p.m. not feeling any better but a tad numb (and it you feel more numb, are you then number...doesn't sound or look right..). Beckster signing off

[gnurd]

Deep Throat, Behind the Green Door, Insatiable....all classics...although they really don't stand the test of time well (from a certain perspective)...but they were breakthrough movies, nonetheless.

Trish, I definitely take it as a complement! I may not be a woman, but I'm definitely a lesbian!

[gnurd]

compliment, not complement...sorry about that!

[Chris]

Beckster, how are you feeling today? I'm going to CB 869 around 1:00ish today if you'd like to join us. I hope that's OK with the prisoner! Let's see, I invited myself, so I guess it's OK for me to invite someone else...I'll bring provisions.

[pam]

Not to worry, Chris, there are some provisions already there, as per your request! Need I say more?

[Chris]

Yes, I get it, thank you Pam.

[pam]

You're welcome!

[pam]

Lucy, you're hired! Like I keep saying, I have plenty of work here...if you can come this far, or have any desire to....

[Becky]

So I went on an adventure today..on the way there, I thought about what I use scissors for: cutting paper, cutting ribbon, cutting my bangs (stopped doing that after a bad chop job), cutting stuff out of the newspaper, cutting pictures to fit into frames, cutting tags off of new clothes, using the tip to puncture a package that won't open That would mean if I used a separate pair of scissors for each job, I would need 7 pair...no where near 29, but I lead a dull life. Until the ride home...I am listening to music and singing and quite happy, when I hear an odd noise and roll down the window, just in time to see my front bumper behind me on Rte 3; since I was going 70 mph and there was a fair amount of traffic, there was no way to stop and risk life and limb to get it. I started to tear up, that lasted about a minute, and then began hysterically laughing. I may not think its so funny when I get the estimate from the body shop...

[Chris]

Becky, when it rains it pours. Go see my guys at Crow Collission on Rte 123 in Abington. They're very fair, and very nice. Tell them that Chris, the lady that kept cracking up the black BMW sent you!