Friday
19Oct2007
October 19th I think
Fri, October 19, 2007 My Daughter…
Please help my mind be less stubborn. I am so tired. Someone is home coming queen tonight. I stay happy for that. And then my heart breaks again. I love you. Please come see me Booze..
I love you
Mom
Reader Comments (5)
She knows you're tired Lucy, but can only be with you in spirit. She is why you continue to be Victorious...keep fighting.
We wish for this.., but they are gone... they are not coming back. They exist only in our hearts and minds. Maybe spiritually... that is a nice thought to have, to think they could come back to us.
My apologies for perhaps coming across insensitive... I am not... you know I care. This is our reality... we can only learn from this, grow, and allow ourselves acceptance. There will be times when we feel weak, but we must hold on for the strength to swoop us up again. Someone once said... 'We are not human beings having a spiritual experience, we are rather spiritual beings having a human experience.' Peace...
I lost a nephew 8 years ago. It was the worst experience our family has ever had as he was only 18. I recently was with my sister in law at a wedding(his mom). She and I were dancing together as women do at weddings and she leaned over and whispered Michael is here dancing with us. I smiled but asked her later what she had meant, She said that sometimes when she is quiet and sometimes during celebrations(he was the life of every party in our family) that she feels his presence very strongly. She loves it when Michael comes to her this way. So Lucy my wish for you today is that you feel her presence be it outside or in the kitchen while you are baking cookies but you will feel it,I am certain.
I've been thinking more on this... sometimes I become unsure. I have wristbands that say 'Remember'(pictured on my page). I wore one on my wrist in memory of my Mother. I will share this story... one night in coming home from work I was speaking out to my Mother... asking her if maybe I held onto her too tight, maybe it was time to let go some. That night when I changed for bed the band was on my wrist, catching my eye as always... the next morning when I awoke it was not there. I tore my bed apart searching for it, I never took it off. A couple of days later, going to get a drink, there sat the wrist band on top of my refrigerator... the words 'Remember' facing me. So how did it get there? I live alone. Was it my Mom answering me... did she remove it from my wrist, telling me it is okay to let go. The mystery will always be there. Lucy now holds this... I gave it to her... in times of doubting if Torri was with her I wanted her to have this to know that they are. It is hard at times to grasp the unknown. I have had other unexplained experiences and friends have shared with me theirs. The band goes everywhere with me, along with Torris.